why, why couldn’t I--
before it was too late.

my wrists are bony and too weak to hold
my heart is so strong, but not so bold
my mind is on you, but it’s so troubled
I’m never steady and have always stumbled

oh will I ever learn?

the blame is on me and...
how I miss the tender feathers of your hair
and the sweet sound of your laughter.

you’ve lifted my heart
without effort or realizing it
and now I don’t care how
I just want to feel it,
the warmth of your voice
but all I hear is the rattling of my brain
and I’d do anything to hear you again.

I hide myself away
it kills me how I can’t get out of this place
and I can’t handle it,
no, I can’t I can’t I cant--

I’m so sorry, my dear, my life, all of my love,
please forgive me
because I’ll never be able to let go

I’ve been so far away and it made me realize
just how much I needed it.
the glow of your voice, the sweetness of your face
and every flaw, a kiss on the cheek...
now I’m all torn away from your grace

maybe I was blind, too scared to say it...
it’s much more painful watching you walk away
I wish I could have faced you
I wish it all hasn’t passed

I only see you for a moment in my dreams
and when I wake all I have is
no one.

and how could this happen to me
held back by the cold that’s been in my soul forever
reflecting all the damage I’ve done

and you don’t even know,
will you ever know?

and oh,
will I ever learn?

but it’s just too late.